my unplanned blogging break and finding my balance

I didn't plan to take a 3 week break from writing. Nor I did I come in to the summer planning to slow down on the the number of posts per week. While I know that the Summer season, a new job, and pregnancy fatigue were all contributors, I also know they weren't the primary cause. Over the last few weeks it has become more and more obvious that I'm having a hard time finding my finding my groove during this season. 

I'm trying to find the balance in sharing the joys of this beautiful season I'm in while still being sensitive to those in a trial season or waiting one.

I'm trying to find the balance of still sharing bits of my heart that changed during our waiting phase but sharing the "right nows" of our story as well.

I'm trying to find the balance on speaking up on current issues with boldness for Christ but preventing this space from becoming a place of tension and arguments. 

I'm trying to find the balance. 

In the past few weeks I've put off writing or I've written posts that I'm not ready to share yet. 
Maybe because I got a little concerned about what your opinions of this blog may become. 
Maybe because I worried many of my momma in waiting friends would think I'd become just another pregnancy blog. 
Maybe because I worried that if still sharing stuff about infertility, friends from my personal life would wish I would just move on from that. 
Maybe because I worried that voicing my opinion on current issues would cause some of you to disagree with me and stop reading altogether. 

And while I still don't want any of those, I'm also realizing that from the beginning of this space I've wanted to pour out my heart and what the Lord laid on it. I simply can't do that freely if I'm too busy concerning myself with what others will think of me. 

So these next few weeks/months I hope you'll hang with me while I find a new groove, a new fit, a new balance. I'll be figuring it out as I go.
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